I feel so useless.
Every routine I go up and do, falls short of my expectations. 8.2 the last time, and 8.0 this time. In both of them, I noticed mistakes that were screaming for mark deductions. Like wtf. I keep disappointing myself. I should count myself lucky that this isn’t comp yet.
I feel especially more so after screwing up a backflip BADLY. Instead of tucking over I piked over since I managed to intelligently stuck my butt out. Landed on my left side of the back as well as my head as a result. Bounced onto the other tramp and disrupted Ruilin (I think) jumping.
Apparently according to Daojie I’ve been doing the backflip wrongly since like ever. Like, WTH. In the midst of re-learning it.
Speaking of comp, it’s on the 16th of April. Pok, like I said before, do well, and kick out someone else. I just hope it’s not me.
Shawn, work harder. Right now I’d say you MAY stand a decent chance. And anyway, nothing has been confirmed yet. (Not until March the 15th, anyway.)
Argh I still feel so useless. Hopeless. Whatever.
Happy Birthday Kelly.
